...Deep within...

Serbey galing kay Eloi sa prendster...

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 16:38:10 GMT

1. What's the greatest thing that happened to you yesterday?

_I spent quality time with my uncles, aunts, sister and my mom.

2. Tell me about the clothes you're wearing.

_ shorts and shirt, tsinelas..nasa house na ako

3. What's currently bothering you?

_ my finances - bills that needs to be paid.... and will I be able to accomplish all my goals for 2009?

4. Are your toe nails painted?

_ nope

5. What do you currently hear?

_mga dumadaan sasakyan

6. When was the last time you had your hair cut?

_sometime in July, before Kathie's wedding

7. When were you last outside?

_earlier, we heard mass at Little Souls Sisters' convent in Tagaytay

8. Are you wearing shorts?

_yuh

9. Does the thought of marriage scare you?

_ it used to...sometimes it still does...

10. What are you doing now?

_answering survey obviously. <--- oo nga naman!

11. What time did you go to sleep last night?

_i can't even remember e. maaga nman un, i mean umaga

12. When is your birthday?

_ May 15

13. Were you happy when you woke up today?

-inis, kasi ginising ako ni Kumeni...ang sakit ng kuko nya - di pa kasi napapa trim.

14. What would you do with 5 million dollars?

_ put some in the bank, buy house and lot, buy a car, give some to my family, and SHARE! (magagawa ko na dream ko to reach out to any foundation or whatever and just share the blessings)

15. Exciting weekend?

_ exciting..uhmmm...not really but I had fun, nevertheless

16. Have you ever crawled through a window?

_oo, matagal na naman un...I was still young at that time

17. What do you spend most of your money on?

_bills, food... I no longer live with my parents.

18. Are you wearing a shirt?

_ yuh

19. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?

_ uhmm..yes

20. How's your heart lately?

_ calm

21. Would you ever donate blood?

_ parang katakot pero pag super kelangan, I will

22. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?

_ gulaman, kanina at my uncle and aunt's home

23. Do you wish someone was with you right now?

_ i will appreciate it pro d nman un wish so far <--- I so agree.

Slambook Survey

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 16:57:21 GMT

// Ver. 1

–Name: Sheryll
–Birthdate: May 15, 1980
–Birthplace: Rosario, Cavite
–Current Location: Indang, Cavite
–Eye color: brown
–Hair color: black
–Height: 4"11
–Righty or Lefty: righty
–Zodiac Sign: taurus
–Innie or Outtie: innie

// Ver. 2 - Describe
–Your Heritage: Filipino
–The Shoes You Wore Today: flats na color brown
–Your Weakness: dami… I’m God’s work in progress…
–Fears: losing a love one...
–Your Perfect Pizza: Sbarro
–You’d like to Achieve as of now:
CAREER: find a place where I can be “happy” and earn a lot! hahaha (mukhang pera?!)
SOCIAL LIFE: learn from past mistakes about making friends and trusting people

// Ver.3
–What is your most overused phrase:
VERBAL: shet naman oh! Oh my God! Kyeme. Chorva
TEXT: LOL. Hehehe. Hahahaha
–Your first thoughts waking up: di ako makahinga! =S
–Your bedtime: between 12:00mn-4:00am (hehehe!)
–Greatest Fear: losing a love one...
–Your Most Missed Memory: yung Mafia days sa Imus

// Ver.4
–Pepsi or Coke: Coke
–McDonald’s or Burger King: Mcdo
–Single or Group Dates: single
–Adidas or Nike: Nike
–Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE!!!
–Cappucino or coffee: Frappucino
–Boxers or Briefs: hmmm sino ba magsusuot?… kung ako...boxers nalang…

// Ver.5
–Do you smoke?: used to
–Cuss?: ehem...
–Sing Well?: I don't sing!! Epal lang ako mamili ng kanta na ipapakanta ko kay Joey.
–Do you think you’ve been in love?: OF COURSE! Just recently fell out of it... hehehe
–Want to go to college: I went to college already
–Liked High School?: yup...ang saya ng high school life!
–Want to get married?: Yuh..someday
–Get motion sickness: Yuh.
–Think you’re a health freak: Ah hindi! (kung kilala mo ako, di mo na itatanong ito)
–Get along with parents: Uhmmm...now, I do...
–Like Thunderstorms: NO!

// Ver.6 - in the past month, did/have you:
–Consumed Alcohol: no
–Have Sex: nope
–Made Out: nope
–Gone On Date: hmmm....past months...no
–Go To the Mall: yup
–Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope, not into oreos that much
–Eaten Sushi: I think I did
–Gone Skating: nope...actually, never pa ako nakapag skating
–Made Homemade cookies: nope
–Been in Love: the past months...no...fall out of it..yuh..
–Gone Skinny Dipping: nah
–Dyed your hair: nope
–Stolen Anything: yes...ung sign pen ni junie na red, naiwan nya sa station nya. hahaha

// Ver.7
–Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: nope
–Been trashed or completely intoxicated: yah...years back!
–Been caught "doing something"?: please elaborate
–Been Called a "Tease": u-huh
–Shoplifted?: nope

// Ver.8
–Age you hope to be married?: 31
–Numbers and Names of Children?: 1 boy and 1 girl …yung names paiba-iba eh pero ang gusto ko ngayon pag girl: Selene Therese (nickname: Seth) at sa boy: Sergio Antonio (nickname: Sera/Santi)
–Describe your dream wedding: mahirap i explain kase grandioso ang dream wedding ko...either a Manila Cathedral or Sanctuario de San Antonio church wedding at sa Shangrila Makati ang reception.
–How do you want to die? in my sleep
–Where do you want to go to college: I went to DLSU, main campus.
–What do you want to be when you grow up?: I used to dream of becoming a lawyer...and my dad hoped that I'd pursue it. Now, I'm a grown up and in a totally different field but I want to settle into managing my own restaurant and becoming a part time journalist. (Di ko na yata kaya mag aral ng law)

Kopyang Survey

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 11:11:30 GMT

I'm listening to the "not so fun" recruitment conference call...

1.Why are you single?
* I dunno...can't find someone good enough for my standards, maybe or I'm too evil that guys can't stand staying with me for a long time? I dunno.. =P

2.Have you ever wished you had a different last name?
* When I was still so young...I wished I'm an Astudillo...but then when I started going to school...no na! =)

3.If a stranger looked in your closet, what would they think?
* Parang "laundry closet" - ang gulo eh!

4.Do you want to be married right now?
*Right now, no. Someday, yes!

5.Do people underestimate you?
* Yes, I think they do.

6.What are you doing tomorrow?
*Shopping at Greenhills with my mom, myko, joey and brian.

7.Name a quote from the song you're listening to.
* I'm listening to Cherry discussing SECS scorecard, ratings, HR endorsements, etc.

8.What side of a heart do you draw first?
* The left.

9.Do you wear a lot of black?
*Not anymore, mainit kase.

10.Do you like orange juice?
* Not that much.

11.Does your temper flare a lot?
*Haha...if you're my friend, you'd know...if you're a stranger, I'd scare the hell out of you! =P

12.Do you get emotional easily?
* Apparently, now I do. There really was a reason why I was called the "Ice Queen" once upon a time. <--kinopyang sagot kay Joey and I'm exactly like her. Ask my high school friends, let's see what they'll say - Bato ako that time; ask my friends now, and let's see - but, I'm pretty emotional now than I'm used to.

13.Do you like to cuddle?
* Used to...and well, cuddle kumeni, and my cousins.

14.How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
* To function...none...if we're talking about functioning efficiently, give me at least 2 hours, I guess.

15. Last trip you took to the zoo?
*Can't remember.

16.Did you feel awkward at all today?
*No. Bihira na ako magkaron ng awkward moments...

17.Do you think you will be married by the time you are 35?
* I hope so! I want to have kids too and be a "co

18.Last four things you drank?
* Water, kool aid strawberry juice, mountain due and water.

19.Did you wake up happy today?
* I woke up and rushed everything - late for work cause I went home at freaking 3am!

20.What month were you born in?
* May.

21.Has anyone ever told you that they hated you, seriously?
* No, but I'm sure SOMEONE hates me that much!

22.How often do you take pain medicine?
* Whenever I experienced terrible headache that makes me insane.

23.Do you sleep with socks on?
* Sometimes I do pag sinipag ako mag ritwal ng mga lotion and moisturizers before I sleep.

24.Have you ever had to go to court?
* No, and I hope I won't..unless I become a lawyer. =P

25.How old do you look?
* As old as I really am, I think.

26.Are you waiting for something?
* Xmas gifts? Hahaha

27.What were you doing at ten last night?
* Working!

28.Did you cry today?
* Nope..kinilig ako sa kwento ni boss...and felt a bit sad in the end

29.Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with?
* Sino ba huli ko nakausap? Uhmmm...an applicant...no I don't.

30.Did you sing at all today?
*No I don't...at di ako marunong kumanta!

My "Twilight" dates...

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 19:00:32 GMT

I’d watched the advance screening of Twilight with Pam but I know that I’ll be watching the movie again – regardless if I liked it or not! I have 3 more twilight dates to look forward to, and after that, I can probably say I’m done with the “twilight fever!”

First, "my Friday Greenbelt 3 date" with Bingky. It ended up in an annoying chase of cabs just to go home! I hate cab drivers! I just do! I had to call R & E and complain…so there, after 1 hour of standing on the road, we finally got our ride and head home – at freaking 2 in the morning!

I crashed to bed and thought about going to sleep or reading some more…and as always, I decided to read a few pages then doze off because I have another date with my extended family - my 2nd twilight date!

When my phone started to beep, I forced myself to peek through it just to see if Butchik sent the details on what time and where are we going to meet. Turns out, they arrived home late so they ended up sleeping until afternoon just like me! Haha. I got the message at around 1pm and I headed to Alabang right away. Excited kasi!

I went straight to the Cinema and got three tickets for me, Butchik and Yanna. We have 2 hours to wait for the start of the screening time so we hang around at Starbucks with my Kuya, my ate, and Mamat.

After the movie, my original plan was to go home to Mandaluyong but I didn’t say a word. I just followed my feet which seem to be walking on its own; so I went to the van with everybody. We had dinner at Outback. At that moment, I was (again) supposed to tell them I’ll be going home to Mandaluyong after dinner. But my lips seem to be sealed, so I went home to Camella instead.

When we arrived home, everybody’s tired so my ate and kuya including Mamat crashed to bed right after shower but the three girls (that includes me), stayed awake until around 2am! We shared loads of kwento about twilight, books, musics, etc. And I can’t help but smile and look back years ago…when Chezka would just pull me away from my kuya and Wally and ask me to look at her - coloring her books; Yanna is still so young, small, so shy and aloof at that time, so whenever I’ll talk to her, she’ll just smile shyly and would answer me in a soft sweet whisper. Whew! How time flies! I’m aging and the kids are growing so fast!

When we decided to go to bed, it took me an hour or so before I really fell asleep. I kept on playing in my mind the memories of the past and the present relationship that I’ve kept with this family, my so called extended family. We aren’t related by blood and we only became friends because of someone who isn’t a part of my life anymore. It’s amazing that the connection that I have with them isn’t lost. And it is indeed one of the many blessings in my life that I’m most thankful for because I learned to love them like my own and I want them to be a part of me as long as I live (but, I don't know how possible that is).

Sunday, nobody seems to want to wake up and get up, except for Matthew who woke up as early as 7am I guess. My kuya and ate were forced to get up because a friend of theirs dropped by. So, I decided to get up myself, not to mention that I have an appointment with my high school friends in the late afternoon. I am equally excited to see them but I am also not so eager to leave Camella because I don’t know when I’ll be able to go back or if I will be given the chance to spend as much time with them again.

Too much of a hassle for them; their entire plan changed because of me. Instead of doing what they planned to do, we ended up having lunch in Tagaytay so that they can drop me off near home. That means I had free lunch (again)?!!!! I was trying to assess myself why I tend to be so “makapal” and yet so shy! Contradicting ba?!? It’s hard to explain but whenever I’m with my ate and kuya, I somehow go back to my old self and the “introvert” part of me would manifest in some ways (just how I am with my ate Pebbles and my mommy Pinky). I would just do what they tell me to do without thinking of what should I really do. It’s not a real bad thing though, but instead of me pulling up my wallet and giving my share, I’d just keep quiet and let them pay. As if I’m with my parents?!? Ang kapal! And, instead of telling them to just drop me off so that my kuya will not have a hard time getting a parking space, I just kept quiet. What an ass?! I just hope they don’t think of it that way, I know they don’t! And I’m grateful for that.

My high school friends arrived and my extended family decided to just leave Starbucks since there isn’t a good spot to stay. It’s a Sunday and the establishment is full! I initially planned for this to be the last time that I’ll be seeing them because I’ve been contemplating on a lot of things lately and I told myself, that it’s probably best if I’ll just bid goodbye to everyone which connects me to “my past.” No one's pushing me to do so, but I just want to make things less complicated and I don't want to cause a difficulty into someone's life even if whenever she’ll cross my mind, I still think of her with total animosity.

I originally planned to give each of them a big hug and leave. But, I changed my mind! When we parted ways I know it’s not going to be the last time unless they decided to stay away from me. I just couldn’t let them go and I know I don’t have to. Regardless of what other people might think or say, I intend to maintain my extended family within reach!

I had an equally fun time with my reunion with Rachel, Minela and Analiza - my treasured high school friends. We had a good time at the spa, and this reunion is something that I didn’t think would be possible, but with God’s grace, it happened!

As we were driving home, I vowed to myself and this comes from the bottom of my heart; Both these sets of friends; I’m going to treasure until I reached my life’s “twilight.”

And, my 3^rd twilight date will be on Friday, with my sister whom will surely be a part of my life as long as I live – I am praying so hard that she’ll live longer than I do! =)

So far, God’s continuously answering my prayers. In fact, I’ve been blessed more than I’d ever imagined…

I'm thankful, after every “twilight,” I’ve been fortunate, I was blessed to witness every “breaking dawn” with hope of a brighter day, no matter how difficult life had been. Praise God! =)

Happy Thanksgiving Day!

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 15:13:59 GMT

2 hours past my supposedly “log-out” time and I am still stuck in the office finishing our daily end of business day reports. It was an ordinary (stressful) working day except that we have extra number of applicants due to the recruitment activity wherein employees will bring their friends and they’ll get some rewards if their friends get hired.

Well, something special this day is the free FOOD (our team’s all time favorite yummy pancit lucban from Buddy’s and Amber’s pork barbeque and pichi-pichi), I guess. Nobs, a good friend also dropped by to say Hi and hang around until almost the end of our shift (plus we planned a trip to CDO and Camiguin on January 2009).

My “pakner” ate Eden and I planned to drop by the spa before we go home to “unwind.” I was wrapping up some stuff when an agent in one of the accounts we’re handling shouted, “Happy Thanksgiving!” Then I looked at my watch and told ate Eden, “12 na pala, Thanksgiving na nga!” In an instant, we suddenly changed our plan.

We’ll celebrate Thanksgiving day!

It’s not roasted turkey for us. We decided to eat dinner (that we don’t usually do anymore), have ice cream, then create our “thanksgiving list”. Ate Eden had pancit lucban again and barbeque, I had barbeque (again) and lugaw (na hindi ko naubos…nakapagtataka). Afterwards, we proceed to McDonald’s and allowed ourselves to have a sinful hot fudge sundae and fries (kase diet kuno, everyone’s watching what I eat due to health reasons! I say, “whatevah?!”)

We found our spot…a corner table near the condiments and trash bin of McDonald’s Buendia, while listening to nostalgic Christmas songs; we decided to bring out our small red notebook (courtesy of sourcing) and write down everything that we were thankful for – our “thanksgiving list.”

I’d like to share my partial list with you.

Being a Christian. I am thankful I know and I believe in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I believe in Blessed Virgin Mary and all the saints. I am a catholic-christian. My faith keeps me from living a meaningful life.
My life! I am not living a life of a princess but I am thankful I was given the chance to live and fulfill whatever mission God has for me. I am not lying in a bed of roses and my journey is not a smooth sailing one but I know I am blessed more than I deserve.
Stressful Job. Well, it’s better than getting stressed out due to unemployment. And, no matter how stressful it is, this job is the source of my survival. It provides money to pay for my bills, allows me to afford what I need to survive; and permit me to get some of my wants. This is where I met my true blue (even if I’m GREEN) friends who are worth keeping.
My sister’s extended life (and my dad’s too). Amen.
My family. My immediate family and everyone in our clan. We don’t live harmoniously all the time and there are some “itchy” moments but I am thankful I have them. Not everybody in the world is blessed to have a family that you can reach out to.
My MAFIA sisters. My sponges…sources of my strength (next to God up above)…gorgeous and brilliant ladies who understands me more than anyone in the world…and they love me too.
My Kumeni. My baby...his kisses (means licking my face and playfully biting my arms) are enough to wipe away my worries in a day.
My extended family. The Santos and the Espinos (except for one Espino in-law). I’m sorry I just had to say that…hehehe. But I am praying that one day, in God’s time total forgiveness will be in my heart. J Anyway, “thankful” is not enough to describe how I feel for the acceptance, all the love and support that these families have shown me since the first day that I’ve met them. They may not know this, but I felt that they’ve treated me like their own and I love them just like I love my own family.
My treasured friends. They’re the walls behind my back who kept me standing all along…they were the wind beneath my wings…they’re just there all the time regardless of what the “weather” is!
Precious moments spent with my family, extended family and treasured friends. Everybody’s busy these days and work is eating most of our time… so there. =P
Memories of my mommy Pinky, inay Alice, ama Anding, tatay Tiban, ama Mike, lola Fely, daddy Abeth, mommy Donna, uncle Danny, inay Juana, nanay Maring, tatay Jose and auntie Nits. It’s been while since I lost them, but I still have vivid recollections of their happy faces. I am thankful for the love and care that they’ve shown me.
Time tested friendship. We might not see each other for years and don’t even know what’s happening in each other’s lives but whenever we get to see each other, it feels like going back to good old times. We can just pick up from where we left off and share never ending stories and laughter!
Church. Place for my spiritual solace… Baclaran and Greenbelt church to be more specific (mas madalas lang ako dito, but other places just offer the same comfort). I am not like my grandmother who goes to church everyday, but when I’m longing for a peaceful place to go to… I go to church.
Christmas. The day, our savior Jesus Christ was born.
Opportunities to make my dreams a reality. I’d rather not elaborate at this time.
Experiences. Helps me go on and move on with my journey...helps me trace the path where I should go…and figure out my purpose in this world.
Independence. I don’t need someone to survive but I want everyone to be by my side. J
Hope…that someday I’ll find the best and right one for me - the love of my life and in which we can see the face of God in “our love” for each other - my Edward Cullen (wala ng kokontra!).
For my past love - Wally, to be specific. Well, it didn’t last for a lifetime but as I’ve said numerous times, at least I get to feel how it is to be loved by him and I realized that I am capable of deeply loving someone. We’ve been the best of friends for years and we were there for each other when we most needed each other, and that’s what’s important.
Forgiveness. Gives me peace.
My teammates. They’re the best that I’ve ever worked with so far. After all the trials … should I say recent movements and changes, everyone is still standing and continuing to exceed “our clients” expectations!
Trials and Heartaches. It made me a strong person. Taught me how to value everything around me.
…being FAT. Because that means I have plenty of foods to eat.
…being (somehow) healthy. I can still work and enjoy life… =P
Knowledge. Hirap i-explain..basta un na un. J
Opportunity to travel without spending. Singit nga lang ang gimik…after work kasi.
Technology. I can communicate with my “mafia sisters” anytime and whenever I feel like it, even if we are miles apart.
Laughter. No explanation needed…
…being pretty. I’m conceited that is…hahaha…I was just comparing myself to someone, so allow me to be boastful for a few seconds. >:)
All the material things that I own. Provides convenience, satisfaction and temporary happiness.
Cabs. When I’m dead tired (which is almost everyday), I can go home conveniently and safely – buhay pa naman ako… J
Blogs. When I’m super SAD, at least nakakapag vent out ako. Paminsan happy moments din. J
Decent Restroom at home. I just have to share it with “Bating…” at least di ako naghahanap ng spot sa tabi ng kalye di ba?
Entertainment (Movies and music).
My own room. I can crash to bed anytime I want.

And the list goes on and on… as I’ve mentioned above this is just a partial list, I plan to just keep the small red notebook with me all the time and just jot down whatever that comes into my mind wherever I will be… J

a space for my mommy Pinky

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 18:32:06 GMT

Finally, I got my "symbolic key chain" from my soul sister Pebbles today plus my chocolate (talk about losing weight!). And together with it, is a card with a poem that my Mommy Pinky wrote some years back. As I was reading it, I suddenly missed her...that it brought tears in my eyes. I know she's happy w/ Jesus in heaven but I just miss her voice, her laughter...everything...

Nevertheless, I'd like to share this poem.

If I Was a Bird

If I was a bird
I'll soar and fly all over the world.
Get to see places I've never been to,
Get to see folks whose faces I miss so.

If I was a bird
My soul would feel light, my spirit would glide.
If I fly farther up, maybe I can get to touch
Jesus' path
Then my heart will burst with joy, laughter
And pride because I'm only a bird.

If I was a bird
I won't worry that much.
Don't have to think about food or what not.
I'll fly away from storms or windy rainy nights,
To keep my wings handy and might,
Because this is all I need for the journey I ask
If I was a bird.

--Patricia Brown, June 1, 2000

Another series....

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 15:26:31 GMT

What Your Red Umbrella Says About You

When faced with adversity, you respond aggressively. A part of you enjoys being challenged.

You don't back down easily. You have the confidence and character to lead.

You are outrageously brazen with you ideas, opinions, and statements.

You'll say what you think, and no one will silence you!

On a rainy day: you should continue your plan to rule the world... while everyone stays home and naps

The Umbrella Test

You Have Very Healthy Relationships

You are an amazing friend, partner, and family member.

You always take other people's feelings into account, and you're never selfish.

Your relationships are based on mutual respect.

You respect the people you love, and you only love people who respect you in return.

Do You Have Healthy Relationships?

What Your Front Door Says

You have simple tastes.

You like the classic basics, especially when they're done well.

Lots of space in your life is very important.

You don't like physical or mental clutter.

The Front Door Test

Am I????

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 08:24:27 GMT

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen to your friends.

And you're the first to lend a shoulder to cry on.

You're there through thick and thin. You won't stop being friends with someone when times are tough.

In fact, you're such a good friend that many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Fwendships....what do you think?

Ehem...ehem

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 08:05:06 GMT

People Envy Your Generosity

You're a giving soul, and you'd do almost anything for those you love. And they'd do anything for you!

People may envy how giving you are, but more than anything, they envy those you open your heart to.

What Do People Envy About You?

I'm a woman...DAW!

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 07:49:09 GMT

You Communicate Like a Woman

You empathize, talk things out, and express your emotions freely.

You're a good listener, and you're non-judgmental with your advice.

Communication is how you connect with people.

You're always up for a long talk, no matter how difficult the subject matter is.

Do You Communicate Like a Man or a Woman?

non-judgemental? yeah?! i'm just a typical evil person! >:)

I am a Catholic-Christian

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 16:38:53 GMT

You Should Follow Christianity

You believe in the Holy Trinity, and that Jesus walked the earth as the son of God.

You also believe that all people sin and that God will forgive you for your sins.

Your relationship with God is very important to you.

You strengthen your faith through prayer, worship, and Bible study.

What Religion Should You Be?

Yes, I have faith...I believe in Jesus, Mary and all the saints...I believe in God. I am a Catholic-Christian. =)

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 07:21:34 GMT

Your EQ is 93

You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

You're a bit moody, and sometimes you have trouble coping with every day life.

But you're by no means depressed, and your good days definitely out number your bad days.

There's nothing really wrong with your life, but you may not be living up to your actual potential.

Negative emotions can be a real drain of your energy, so make sure you have them under control.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Gaya-gaya

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 07:20:51 GMT

Here I am stealing company's time again...and dahil inaantok ako, sasagutan ko etong survey from Nyt Angel

Part I: The Rules

RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it.
RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks

Yeah, yeah... f**K the rules.

Part II: The part that should have started with "Have You..."

Question: Like someone?
--> Now? Uhmm...yeah

Question: Kissed someone on your top friends?
♫ I don't think so...

Question: Been arrested?
♫ No. Thank heavens...

Question: Been searched?
♫ Yes...nun product training with PB at may isang agent na "nawala" daw ang wallet...and someone suggested na tingnan namin ang gamit ng isa't isa... does that count?

Question: You love someone?
♫ Right now? Romantically...not sure anymore... But I love a lot of people. :)

Question: Been suspended from school?
♫ No... but, I've been suspended from work! Nyahahahahahah

Question: Sat on a roof top?
♫ Hmmm.... di ako talaga naupo! =P

Question: Broken a bone?
♫ No. At sana di na mangyari ever!

Question: Have shaved your head?
♫ No. Why would I want to shave it off? (nagba vitamins pa nga ako for the hair eh!)

Question: Played a prank on someone?
♫ Yes

Question: Had/have a gym membership?
♫ Nope

Question: Shot a gun?
♫ Not yet....but I will..hopefully soon? (kuya mark, kelan na tayo mag firing?)

Question: Donated Blood?
♫ hindi ko yata kaya... :S

Part III: The part that starts with "LAST PERSON YOU..."

1. You hang out with?
♫ My high school friends

2. Last person that you texted?
♫ Bingky Anne-Curtis

3. Went to the movies with
♫ Bingky Anne-Curtis

4. Went to the mall with?
♫ Mall...hmmm...kelan ba ako huli nag mall... uhmmm...si half brother, half sister Bating. Nag lunch kami sa food court ng Shang.

5. Person you talked on the phone with?
♫ Lee Marc, I think

6. Person that called you?
♫ Minela

7. You messaged on myspace?
♫ Amboy

8. You talked to?
♫ Maqui..about the wedding thingy..

9. You miss?
♫ My kumeni

10. You hugged?
♫ Rachel

Part IV: The part where I have to choose

1. Eat or drink?
♫ Eat

2. Be serious or be funny?
♫ Be funny

3. Drink whole milk or skimmed milk?
♫ Whole

4. Die in a fire or die getting shot?
♫ Getting shot.

5. Go to the bar or to the beach
♫ The beach

Part V: The part that I have to "ANSWER TRUTHFULLY"
1. Sun or moon?
♫ The moon

2. Winter or fall?
♫ Winter

3. Left or right?
♫ Right

4. Black and white or colored?
♫ Black and white

5. Where do you live?
♫ Mandaluyong/Cavite

6. Do you wanna get married?
♫ Yes

7. What is on your mind?
♫ Pwede ba mag undertime? I am too damn sleepy...

8. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
♫ Twirl but I usually ends up cutting it...

Part VI: The part that begins with "THIS WEEK HAVE YOU..."

1. Kissed someone?
♫ No

2. Been hugged by someone?
♫ Yes

So where did the "Who was your last?" apply again?

Di naman nawala ang antok ko....

Stolen

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 17:56:31 GMT

I found this in my cousin's blog entry...I just had to steal it...

"Learn this from me. Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.

Forgive, Edward. Forgive

...That's because no one is born with anger. And when we die, the soul is freed from it. But now, here, in order for you to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did, and why you no longer need to feel it."

And here's another one...

searching for love had been a mystery for me..
i've been told that if i want love, i have to search for it..
some said, i have to wait..
but humans as we are, we need someone more than just a companion..we need someone who could complete us..
many have found it & lost it in a snap..
even if you have to seach or to wait, 3 things are important once you have it..

risk everything
anticipate pain &
endure whatever it brings.

Bittersweet gathering...

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 17:14:29 GMT

A few days ago, I received a shocking and unwanted message from a good friend… I was about to sleep because I am not feeling too well that night – physically and emotionally.

When my phone “beep” – a signal that an incoming message was received, I hesitated before I read the message because if it came from a friend who can’t sleep…that would mean numerous exchanges of text messages chatting about anything and everything under the sun – and that would mean a sleepless night for me!

Hmmm… I decided to read the message anyway – it came from a good friend way back in high school – and I had to blink several times and stare at my phone for a few seconds before the message sank in. It was a message stating that our friend’s mom “went home.” It feels like the whole world stopped suddenly…and everything around me seems to be a part of a TV series which has been frozen by magic.

I didn’t cry. Again, even if I wanted to I couldn’t. But, immediately I suffered from a terrible headache that even 2 capsules (1,000mg) of Tylenol extra strength didn’t help! After taking the meds, I tried to sleep but I couldn’t…there’s a thumping pain in my head and it feels like it will explode anytime. I had to force myself to stand up again…then; I took a bath and went to our friend’s house.

It was a “good reunion” – since we haven’t talked nor seen each other in years – for reasons I’d rather not mention. It was indeed a nice reunion since no explanations or arguments was made – we just saw each other and hugged - but, the reason for the reunion is something that I wouldn’t wish to happen ever again.

Despite the tears and pain of losing “auntie-second mom,” I am still thankful that she didn’t suffer a painful experience before she finally went home. I know, she is now pain free and happy with Jesus in heaven. But, in my selfish state of feeling and mindset, I wished she’s still here with us… But God’s ways are far better than ours – He knows what’s best for all of us… right now, I just have to think that “aunt-second mom” is real happy in heaven.

It’s a bittersweet reunion. We are mourning and grieving for the loss of a person – very dear person - who remained close to my heart, even if we haven’t seen each other in ages…

But, another life was given to us by the Lord Almighty…another baby was added to the “barkada’s family” and that addition is more than enough reason to celebrate – it’s another gift of life! Well, the eldest baby that we have is now 8 years old…so we have another baby to “celebrate.” J It was not all mourning after all…

Before all these things happened, I am dealing with my own emotions – anxiety attack – or should I say depression – which would be discussed in a separate entry, if I’ll have the time to create another one. But having to spend 2 days with my long lost high school friends – full of laughter, reminiscing the old times when life is so simple, but seems to be complicated because we are not the group who always follow the rules and obey the policies…. It is really therapeutic for me! I wish, we get to spend time with each other more often – minus the bitter reasons of this moth’s reunion… I wished, we would have a regular “sweet reunions!”

I am hurt, I am suffering from emotional pain due to various reasons but today, after I left the wake of “aunt-second mom” there’s a feeling of happiness deep within… Considering that after several years of rarely communicating – we get to spend real quality time with each other …even if it is a bitter-sweet reunion, I got to spend time with my long lost friends whom I truly missed – the people who’d been there for me more than half of my life…

Spending time with these people is indeed the best medicine to cure my bleeding heart… And the best “antibiotic” for me is being aware of the fact that no matter how seldom we see each other, even if we are miles apart, even if we don’t communicate that often, and even if our busy and conflicting work schedules are pulling us apart – one thing I’m sure of, we’ll be friends till the end of time…

Genuine friends are indeed the best blessing that I ever received….and since I am so blessed, I promise to be the best friend that I can be – I am not a good person, I am evil but I’ll do everything that I can to be the best friend that I can be!

“A true friend is like blood…It sustains life yet it is not always visible, but it comes out everytime you are wounded…”

"What's inside my heart...?"

Tue, 22 May 2007 22:52:19 GMT

What’s inside My HEART…?

In my 27 years of existence, the road that I traveled has been bumpy, rough and rutted. I’ve encountered a lot of storms a long the way…

I wished I was richer, I wished I’m not as bad as I was, I wished I fulfilled my dreams and my father’s dream for me (to become a lawyer), I hope, wished and regretted a lot of things…

I lose some very important people in my life and again, there were regrets -- If only, what if, I should have…

It was not an easy journey and I know that I’m not even half way on the path that I choose to take...to get to where I’m supposed to go.

I believed that I’ve changed a lot…it could be for the better or I could have turned into a “nightmare” for all the people I know… - I don’t know… really…

Some people say, I should be married by now and have my own kids. I say I should have my own business and traveled the world – if only…

Too many buts, what ifs, if only… and I came to realize all those don’t matter… If I continue to live in the past and dwell on my regrets I won’t be able to enjoy the things and the people that I have right now.

I asked myself…am I happy…and the first thing that came into my mind was – YES I am! I may not be the richest person on earth – materially speaking, spiritually and so is emotionally – but I know I am happy.

I still have too many desires and I “long” for a lot of things just like anybody else I know…

I miss my long lost friends,
I miss a lot of very good friends, whom I used to see every single day of my life,
I miss spending time with a lot of people including some family members,
I missed my childhood life when I was everybody’s (meaning every member of my “mom’s clan”) baby at home…
I miss a lot of things and I am wishing for a lot of things

And am I missing “YOU…”
Yeah, I guess I am…I miss my old self – the timid young little fellow, and not the monster that a lot of people from work probably hates,

But just today I realized that I may miss my old self, I may have added a lot of years in my life And I may not see my loved ones as often as I used to, but after my conversation with my favorite uncle…I know that I am still his “first baby...” and now I strongly believe that a lot of things might change…we may achieve whatever we desire or we may experience failure… but Happiness doesn’t depend on how rich and loved we are.

People most often than not associates’ happiness with their accomplishments in life…
We measure happiness in several ways – how successful we are, “who are we with,” how much money is on our bank account, and do we bring “honor” to the family’s name, etc…

BUT, do these things really measure happiness or how happy we are?

I often encounter a lot of articles – “sermons” – on how we can successfully achieve happiness…and I wonder if those advices really help. Well, maybe it does, and for some it doesn’t…I guess it’s just a matter of what we believe in.

Personally, I believe that Happiness is a feeling of contentment! No matter where we are and who we are with…we can achieve happiness by learning to appreciate what we have and not dwell on what we don’t have…we should be living in the present…live one day at a time and enjoy every single day as it comes…we can plan for the future but we should not worry too much about it…

And I also believe happiness is “the sister” of honesty, acceptance, forgiveness…and most importantly “FAITH.”

I know a lot of things changed in me as I traveled the road of life and pursue my dreams…

BUT I am sure, I am where GOD wants me to be (right now) and I believe HE is still molding me to become the person that HE wants me to be…

I acknowledge that part of the complexities of life is to have problems and trials but no matter how big the storm is we just need to HAVE FAITH and TRUST in the LORD – and if we do - I am sure EVERYTHING’s gonna be alright!

I believe Happiness does exist even if we are facing challenges and trials…because no matter how big the storm is, at the end of it all we still experience “peace…” in the loving arms of our creator!

"ONE STEP FORWARD...TWO STEPS BACK!"

Tue, 22 May 2007 22:50:53 GMT

"We heal our minds whenever we let bad memories go; Our souls whenever we pray, and our hearts whenever we forgive...”

Hmmm...Bad memories are meant to be forgotten and buried deep under the ground. Some memories may not be too bad...but it’s better not to be reminisced…healthier for the mind and heart, I guess. =)

Losing someone either by circumstance or by choice is and never will be easy… a feeling of loneliness and emptiness will haunt you for days, weeks, months or years – no one really knows how long – but since Time doesn’t stop … Life goes on… And it will really reach a point that People will - move on!

Moving on starts with acceptance for some; others start with “forgetting” but I’ll say… I started with surrendering and forgiving… Surrendering simply means turning into prayers and lifting all the burden in my heart to God… and that resulted to “forgiveness.” Now, that I’ve learned to let go… and finally started to move on… my heart is at peace… and will probably open its doors anytime … (I just hope you’ll not get tired of knocking…Ü)

But I guess life is really too complex and full of mysteries… when you’re at peace - unexpected (or should I say unwanted) things happen. (Sigh) It is sad that for some reason when one’s heart and soul is willing to completely let go (and/or completely letting go) and have started to move on… an “element of the past” seems to be unhappy about it and sends some confusing signal which may give “false hopes” and let you “hold on…” UNFAIR, isn’t it?

(“Mahal p din kita.Malay mo tau pala n d end. Who knows? Bsta friends tau ha? I love you, n d nagbago un. Take Care! Mwah!” – Chojun Miyagi)

There’s nothing wrong in holding on and I don’t mind holding on, no matter how long… if there’s something to hold on to… (Sigh) … tough life! But yeah, who knows on what will happen in the future…?

I want to believe that “love” is not just an emotion or feeling; it is a “choice” – a decision that has to be made…a commitment maybe?! I just hope that people would realize what they really want and when they are sure of it, I hope they’ll have the guts to fight for it - I pray that they’ll be blessed to have a good heart and make sure they’re not stepping on someone else’s shoes in the process of fighting for what they want…

They say “Fear ends when hope begins…” It could be perfectly true, but I think the most important thing is to have FAITH and continue to TRUST the Lord Almighty. =)

In the midst of confusion, mixed emotions, and contradicting opinions…there’s only one thing, I’m sure of, “Everything will fall into proper places…in God’s time!”

And “P,” whoever you are and wherever you are at this time, if it’s really meant to be… I hope and pray that when the right time comes - in God’s time perhaps – I can honestly say that – “I do believe that God above created you for me to love and picked you out among the rest because He knows I love you best!""

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 00:15:56 GMT

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul.

Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.

Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

....

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 00:30:00 GMT

Life is all about waking up each day to discover something new…
…about meeting old people but making new conversations,
Walking through old roads but still feeling nice about it…
…realizing that you have grown a day older but still feeling young at heart,
Meeting busy schedules but still finding time to smile,
…being nostalgic about gone days but looking forward to better days to come!

I got this message from my good friend Peehpoe early yesterday morning but I was able to read it at around night time, I guess. Talk about “hibernating” weekend…

I had a reunion with two of my long time friends (one since I was four and the other one since high school) a week ago. We seldom see each other these days, but every time we see each other, it feels like high school days again. We’ll chat all day, laugh and giggle all we can! It’s always good to be around old friends sharing new experiences and reminiscing good old times. There are a few times that we talk about some predicament…but it still feels good that we’re sharing it with each other.

***** ***** ***** **** **** **** **** **** **** ******

I had a good weekend…having Monday as a rest day…aha! It was so fun…having to watch tv and stay home while everybody else goes to work.

Saturday, I left the office at around noon, leaving some people finishing some stuff (as usual). I arrived home at the hills tired and exhausted…as always, I took a shower and took a nap (hoping that it would only be a nap!)…this turned out to be a looooooooong one. My uncle wanted to kill me because he’s been knocking on my bedroom window trying to wake me up. But alas, I was in a deep sleep.

Sunday turned out to be a “mini reunion” at my aunt’s place. Mini because not all the members or the clan were there but I got to see my aunts, uncles and cousins whom I’m closest to. As usual, we chatted, ate all we can and chatted again. There’s a bit of a guilt in my heart because I didn’t brought my aunt, uncle and cousins home – first because, I hate driving at night and second, the car keeps on losing the sound of the horn and he hazard light…- oh well, whatever the reason is nobody cares…and they didn’t hate me for not driving them home, anyway. =)

**** ***** ********** ********** ********* ***** ****

It’s Tuesday, meaning I would be working again tonight! Arrggghhhh… The good part though is I’ll be able to see my friends and hopefully have a good chat during lunch. It would be a tiring (and boring) week again…I can only wish that it’s already weekend – I'm a real bummer I know!

Sleepy head...

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 20:22:21 GMT

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Hmm...

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 13:04:21 GMT

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 21:49:28 GMT

You Are 61% Scary

Sorry to break it to you, but you're a pretty scary chick.
Men don't know what you'll do or say next, and that freaks them out.

Do You Scare Off Men?

I know i'm scary..Nyahahha!

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 00:32:56 GMT

love comes, love goes,
but a sudden feeling never lets me be
somehow, i know,
quite a part of me isn't changed since you've been gone
like a sturdy tree thats seen a thousand seasons
i've to shed my leaves in winter
and grow them back in spring
to welcome life again
to welcome you

so goes, my life
still beleive in dreams of having you around
too bad, memories feed the mind and not the heart
where i want you to be,
so i ask myself what you've left behind for me
to go on each day and live as if
i have you once again
what else is there that's real
but all the pain that i feel,

chorus:
so let the pain remain
forever in my heart
for every throb it brings is one more moment
spent with you,
i let the pain, bring on the rain
if that's the only way
if there's no other way
to be with you again

too bad memories, feed the mind and not the heart
where i want you to be
so i ask myself what you've left behind for me
to go on each day
and live as if i have you once again
what else is there that's real
but all the pain that i feel

excited...exhausted...zzzZZZzzzZZZ

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 12:55:36 GMT

...I started the day too early...
...I guess i'm too excited to check the new place...

...I can't wait to move in...(I want to say...I can't wait to move on too!)..

...I guess this is the start...will be the start..

Start?
...a new career (a promotion hopefully)... or
...Start a new life maybe...

..I hope and pray that i'm ready to face another phase of my life...

But for now..one thing is for sure...I'm too damn sleepy....(Hohum)

Sssshhhh...ssshhh....Ssssshhh

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 19:56:16 GMT

You Are Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable.
You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Hehehehe